Paradise Lost

Some mornings you just want to scream!!!! You finally realize that no one could love you more than yourself. When you have lost your independence, it humbles you. For some reason those around you are not aware of your actual pain and struggle to succumb to dependence on others. Many are not aware of the hurt you face when you have to ask 4 times for a glass of water. Sometimes you just stop asking.
Yes sometimes I wonder if God is listening. He has been reduced to cliches:

"He doesn't put more on you ..............."

"God answers prayers................and if he doesn't, praise him anyway"

Do we hear ourselves?

Paradise was just being able to do for myself.

ALL days are not great!!!!!!!!!! But tomorrow is another day.